Some of you may know me and my story, and some of you may not. I have been dancing since the age of three. Ballet has been a huge part of my life for the last fifteen years. I have trained professionally for several summers, and have worked hard hoping for a professional career for as long as I can remember. However, around last September, I realized that my love for ballet was deteriorating quickly, and it was making me an incredibly negative person. First and foremost, ballet is an art that I will forever respect; but its world can be – to be perfectly honest – totally toxic. You either push others aside to be in the spotlight, or get pushed aside yourself. It is a world of endless comparison and competition, and there are few people that are actually genuine. To sum it up, it is cut throat. People are fake, and will do anything to get their moment. Some people are able to do it for fun, and ignore the often brutal realities of it; but for me, as of right now, I have been so involved with it for the past fifteen years that all of its negatives completely out-weigh its positives; and I’ve spent so much time doing it I haven’t had time to do other things. That is not to say that some day I won’t find my way back to it. I don’t pretend to know my future; but as of now, I am ready to move on.
However, I am not going out on a sour note. On the contrary, I’m going out with a bang. Im going out dancing my dream role (Aurora), and am dancing beside people I truly, truly love. New beginnings await this bittersweet ending. I’m moving on and am stepping into the new season God has brought me into. Come August, I will be attending Westmont College. I’m looking to study English and History. I never had the chance to pursue school as much as I wanted to, and now I have that chance, and I couldn’t be more excited! After Sleeping Beauty (my upcoming performance), I will be posting a goodbye message to my ballet life, and to all the people who made it worth while. But for now I just wanted to explain what’s going on, and give you all an update 🙂 God bless!